Om Namah Shivaya


Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Things you might not know about teachers...

My Drum Line. "Team Stout"
Unless you've been #LivingUnderARockRecently, you might have noticed a trend in the world right now (America expecially) that involves the unnecessary, unenlightened, and unmitigated bashing of not only our public school system, but us, the teachers who work in this excuse me...*live* in this system.

"#Live? *Psht* Whatever are you talking about?!  Teachers have it #Easy; you're done with work by 2:30pm, you have summer's off, all the holidays you can think of, luxurious snow days, spring break, and aside from the occasional dance you have to chaperone, or science fair you have to host, you've got a pretty damn cushy job!"

Have you seen my car lately?  It resembles my bedroom almost I spend so much time in it.  *Excuse me while I smack some sense into this person*

Schooling my kids on Bass Drum
As a public school teacher for almost 8 full years (closing in on the end of my 8th) I have learned many things; the most important ones being that "My day does.not.start at 7:20am, and does.not.stop at 2:20pm", and "Summer?  What Summer."  Now, don't get me wrong here.  My first year of teaching I will fully and honestly admit that I was home by 3pm almost every single day (not counting football game days, basketball game days, competition days, and after school meeting days), and I did absolutely *nothing* that first summer (aside from Band Camp in August).  What can I say...I didn't know any better and I didn't have a good mentor who *taught* me any better, so I had to learn on my own and learn I did.

Race for the Cure 2010
I've learned that I am the most constant, *positive*, adult contact that a majority of these young people will have in their formative years.  I have learned that I must be #Relentless in my quest to shape these young attitudes, minds, and souls, into something productive, respectful, and giving.  I've learned that I have to take the time to listen to them because sometimes I'm the only one who will.  I've learned when to kick them in the rear and when to handle them with kid gloves.  I've learned that my high expectations are what make them better.  I've learned that I *can* and *DO* tell them "How #DareYou waste my time with anything else but your very best effort!"; because when I call them to the carpet, they are grateful that someone cared enough to notice.  I've learned that it's okay if they don't like me because I'm not in this business to have teenagers like me (but it is a bonus when they do); I'm in this business to turn teenagers into "like-able" adults who know the difference between right and wrong, how to solve an argument without fists, and how to trust in the power of #RESPECT

I have also learned the power of what a teacher actually does.  Here it is, a slice of my life, a look into my day...enjoy.

4:15am my alarm starts going off and I groggily crack an eye open.  "It can't be time to get up already?!  I just went to sleep!" *sigh* #snoozebutton  

4:25am snooze time has ended and I haul myself out of bed.  I start my bath, let the dogs out, and stumble out to the kitchen for a wonderfully fragrant and soul warming mug of the "Nectar of the Gods".  Nothing better than that morning cup of coffee...mmmmm...then I let the dogs in and feed/water them.

4:30am-5am is bath time to wake up gently and gradually.  Try it, you might find that your mornings are easier.  I let the dogs out.

5am-5:30am I workout.  I know right?!  Crazy to be working up a sweat that early in the morning and right after a bath.  I've been doing this for about a year and for some reason it works.  I know that if I don't work out in the morning it's not gonna get done.  Today for example, I didn't workout this morning and told myself "I'll do it when I get home."  Ha! It's 6:46pm, I'm writing this blog and staring at the pile of stuff I need to work on and I *still* need to get dinner moving but my lower back and hip are throbbing right now so I'm gonna sit yet for a bit.  #NotGonnaHappen

5:30am-6:15ish-am I let the dogs in and deal with their morning routine as I frantically get myself ready for school/work.  Thankfully I've been moving through this particular morning routine for such a long time it's automatic, and having the short hair cuts about 15minutes. Still some mornings it's still a struggle to get the outfit right or stop my eyes from watering so I can get makeup on, or the dogs are particularly needy, or, or, or...take your pick.

6:15ish-am-6:30ish-am I pack my lunch, brush my teeth, kiss the hubby (who is still in bed sleeping btw ;), give one last rub to the dogs, grab my coat and all my stuff and head out to the car.  

I do want to interject here and add that most mornings I also flip the laundry, sweep the floors, pick up the clutter, and do the dishes.  This way I don't have to walk into a messy house at the end of the day.  Are you tired yet?

630ish-am-7:05am Commute to school

Race for the Cure 2010
7:05am-7:20am This is when the fun starts.  As soon as I hit the door I'm redirecting, correcting, answering questions, solving problems, and occasionally consoling.  "Put your badge on", "Hood off please", "Would you #Please pull your pants up?", "Hands off, hands off, HANDS OFF!", "Hood off PLEASE", "Dude, seriously are you kidding me? Put.Your.Badge.ON!" *Sigh*

7:20am-7:30am Commute from the Jr. High which is my home building, to the High School which is the first stop on my list.  Here I am the Assistant Band Director and Drum Line Instructor.  As soon as I hit the door I am redirecting, correcting, answering questions, solving problems, and occasionally consoling.  "Put your badge on", "Young lady that skirt is WAY to short", "Hood off please", "Would you #Please pull your pants up?", "Hands off, hands off, HANDS OFF!", "Hood PLEASE", "Dude, seriously are you kidding me? Put.Your.Badge.ON!"  *Sigh* 

7:30am I hit the Band Room door; "Come on folks! Get it uncovered, mallets out, books out, Timpani tuned, let's move let's move #Let'sMove!

7:40am-8:29am Band class/rehearsal. (Some of these are just hand signals, a finger snap followed by a stare, a quick "Psht" with a small shake of the head, or one of my favorites the silent "walk-up-behind) "Where's your stuff?", "Get up and MOVE folks!", "State's around the corner", "Quickly please! Quickly!", "Shhhh", "Eyes Forward", "Stop talking", "State's around the corner", "Quickly please!", "Where are your sticks?", "Seriously you need to know what you play on this song when we've been rehearsing it for #THREE months?!", "State's around the corner", "Shhh!" "What...what's your question", "No, not right now...leave me alone", "Quickly please!", "Shhhhh", "State's around the corner", "Reminders! Reminders! Reminders!", "Allright pack it up, cover it up, make it look nice and neat.  Let's go!"

8:29am-8:35am I am usually writing passes for my boys, answering their questions, entertaining their ideas, reminding them of after school rehearsal times, and having them re-tuck, put their badges on, and get out the door.

8:35am-8:45am "Common Plan" time; conversation with Head Director about the students, class, upcoming activities, etc.   

8:45am-8:55am Commute to first elementary school of the day

Band picnic 2010.  I shouldn't have been there, had chemo that day but I wanted to be there for them

8:55am-9:00am set up my "room" for class.  My room is on the Stage which opens right into the Gym and even though the door is closed it's still noisy.  It's also the staff lunch room so I have to deal with teachers coming in and interrupting and having at least one conversation with a fifth grader about just exactly *why* they can't use the vending machine.  

9:05-9:30am pick the kids up and have class.  "Straight line, brown tile, toes and eyes forward, mouths closed.", "Where's your instrument?  At home?  Go back to class I'll see you tomorrow and no you may *not* come anyways because all you do is talk.  Goodbye!"   "Tune", "Review, New, Future material", "Shhh!", "Stop Talking", "You are wasting time you don't have", "Good job!", "Do it again!", "No I will not enable you", "Good job!", "Reminders, reminders #Reminders!", "Pack Up We Gotta Go!"

9:35am-9:45am Commute to elementary #2 

9:45am-950am Sit for just a second in the silence of my car.

9:50-10:35am: Get into building, only restroom stop of the day, stop by each 5th grade room to get kids and have class (thankfully in an actual classroom this time).  "Straight line, brown tile, toes and eyes forward, mouths closed.", "Where's your instrument?  At home?  Go back to class I'll see you tomorrow and no you may *not* come anyways because all you do is talk.  Goodbye!"   "Tune", "Review, New, Future material", "Shhh!", "Stop Talking", "You are wasting time you don't have", "Good job!", "Do it again!", "No I will not enable you", "Good job!", "Reminders, reminders #Reminders!", "Pack Up We Gotta Go!"

10:40am-10:45am Commute to elementary #3

10:45am-10:58am Set up room (ESL room), check email and return emails, print, make copies, check items off "To-Do" list.  

11am-1130am Pick up kids and have class.  "Straight line, brown tile, toes and eyes forward, mouths closed.", "Where's your instrument?  At home?  Go back to class I'll see you tomorrow and no you may *not* come anyways because all you do is talk.  Goodbye!"   "Tune", "Review, New, Future material", "Shhh!", "Stop Talking", "You are wasting time you don't have", "Good job!", "Do it again!", "No I will not enable you", "Good job!", "Reminders, reminders #Reminders!", "Pack Up We Gotta Go!"

11:40am-11:50am Commute back to home school.  Usually a Walgreens stop on the way for a Green Tea, some gum and a magazine.  Also use this opportunity to pick up any items we need at home since it's one less thing to do at the end of the day.

11:55am-1:30pm Plan and Lunch time.  Copies, phone calls, emails, schedules, calendars, powerpoints, setting up the room, cleaning up the trash from the previous hours, 2 hall duties with hall sweeps: "Put your badge on", "Hood off please", "Would you #Please pull your pants up?", "Hands off, hands off, HANDS OFF!", "Hood off PLEASE", "Dude, seriously are you kidding me? Put.Your.Badge.ON!", "STOP RUNNING!", "Stop play fighting in my hallway!", "Tardi Trac, Tardi Trac!", "I don't *care* f you don't want to go to Tardi Trac, you're going and I will win because!" 

Part of 8th grade Orch. Fall concert
1:35pm-2:20pm 8th grade Orchestra: "Where's your instrument?  At home?  Go sit down and don't talk.  Fill out the "R.O.S".  "Grab your stuff, have a seat!", "2minutes and counting folks! Move move move!", "No I don't know where your instrument is", "Stop poking one another", "Grab your stuff, have a seat!, "30 seconds and counting!", "Time's up! Sit down! High Bow....High BOW....HIGH BOW!".  "Here's your A, Tune", "Who needs me?", "Have you been tuned?", "Where's your stuff?", "Spit your gum out", "High Bow!".  "Shhh!", "Stop Talking", "You are wasting time you don't have""Scales, warm-ups, Chorales, Arpeggios", "First piece, measure 24...Violas!  Violins measure 15.  Good.  Cello's start at 54 please and *attack* the note!  Basses, sustain that note you're our foundation you can't be wimpy".  "Good job!", "Do it again!"  "Shhh!", "Stop Talking", "You are wasting time you don't have", "Good job!", "Do it again!", "No I will not enable you", "Good job!", "Reminders, reminders #Reminders!", "Pack Up We Gotta Go!", "Line those stands up nice and neat, pick up the floor, have a seat!", "Announcements are on! Shh! Stop talking!", "You're dismissed see you tomorrow".

2:20pm-2:30pm Hall Duty which consists of me and the other teachers saying "#GOHOME!!!" at the top of our lungs.  They don't ever seem to want to be *at* school yet they never seem to want to leave. #Don'tUnderstand

2:30pm-2:40pm enter attendance, clean up desk, clean up room, think about tomorrow's class, check my email, grab my stuff, head down to my mail box, walk out the door and drive to Ruskin.  

3:00-4:30/5pm Percussion Rehearsal and/or Drum Line Rehearsal "Good job!", "Do it again!"  "Shhh!", "Stop Talking", "You are wasting time you don't have", "Where's your stuff?", "Get up and MOVE folks!", "State's around the corner", "Quickly please! Quickly!", "Shhhh", "Eyes Forward", "Stop talking", "State's around the corner", "Quickly please!", "Look at me", "Where are your sticks?", "Seriously you need to know what you play on this song when we've been rehearsing it for #THREE months?!", "That wasn't good enough; do it again", That's it! NOW, do it again!", "Quickly please!", "I'd like to be leaving by 5 and we're already 30min behind!", "Do it again", "Shhhhh", "State's around the corner", "Reminders! Reminders! Reminders!", "Allright pack it up, cover it up, make it look nice and neat.  Let's go! I gotta hit the road! (Usually 30min late)"

5pm-5:30/5:45/sometimes 6pm wait for parents to arrive even though it clearly states on the calendar that rehearsal ENDS at 5pm.  I do have a life folks!  I would like to have some time to enjoy it :)

Raytown Marching Comp 2010. Should not have been there, had Chemo the day before but had to be there for them
Once the kids are all picked up or I have dropped them off, I head home on my 20min commute.  Usually there are errands to run and appointments to make before I can really be home.  Then once I get home, usually anywhere between 530 and 6, unless it's Marching Season where Thursday's and Friday's I don't get home until 10pm if I'm lucky; or Basketball Season where it could be any night of the week (or a concert night, or a meeting night, or, or, or).  So I get home and we all know what happens when you get home.  We don't have any human children right now, we have two black labs.  They are just as demanding as children people, they demand and require, and deserve just as much attention (hell they've been home alone all day!).  I set foot out of my car and I hear the barking.  "Mom's home!  Mom's home!  ball...ball...ball... Mom's home! Mom's home!"  It always brings a smile to my face to see those two goofs barking like crazy behind the sliding glass door but it also wears me out knowing I have at least an hour, hour and a half before I can just focus on *me*.  

5:30/6pm-8pm So the nightly routine begins.  Laundry, sweeping floors, figuring out what's for dinner and getting that going, playing with the dogs (which does afford me some time to read my book a sentence or two at a time in-between hits), then more laundry, fixing dinner, and *finally* sitting down at 8 where I look over at the stack of stuff I brought home from school (currently Drum Line "Bible" material to put together, calendars to set, handbooks to rewrite, music to go through and digest, and my mileage forms to finish, oh and a professional travel request as well).  Each night all I can think is "It's already 8 o'clock?!  "Double U.Tea.Eff", man.  I haven't even done any yoga or taken my bath, I still have all that to do and yet I'm utterly exhausted." 

**Couple side notes: 1) I started writing this blog about 5:45pm yesterday, took it upstairs with me when I got ready to make dinner, then worked on it in bed for a bit in between other things before turning the light off at 11pm too exhausted to think anymore.  2) I did take this whole week off from after school rehearsals (a *well* deserved break from lots of hard work these past months) but I'm *STILL* not getting home until of a teacher?***

The last "Cougar Pride Band"
I really really try to do it all in a day.  My life, *our* life, my teaching, and nurturing of young souls and minds, but sometimes I just can't.  I mean, come.on...I had freaking breast cancer 1st semester and still pushed myself to be there for my students even if I wasn't feeling 100%.  I can't tell you how many people got upset with me because I kept putting them first but you see, that's what I do.  It's who I am.  It's what I'm all about.  If I'm not there for them then who is?  They miss me when I'm not there, and I miss them.  This is my life, my love, and my passion.  

So how long will I get to do it?  If the current economic climate is any indicator, who the #Ficklesticks knows?  Funding gets cut every.single.year, more and more teachers lose their jobs, and more responsibility is heaped upon those of us who are left.  You don't know this, but last year our department went from 14 people to 8 and we practically had to BEG to get them to hire one more and that was simply because none of us had space in our schedule to cover those classes, although last year's "Teacher of the Year" (our head Orchestra director) sure did try and he almost ran himself into the ground doing so.  

Band Camp 2010
Left! Left! Band Camp 2010
I leave you with these last thoughts as I feel that I have rambled enough.  If you honestly think that teachers have some posh job that affords them all sorts of time off, including summers, I would like for you to know that I take #ONE, count it, O.N.E week off during the summer, and I'm forced to take a second thanks to MSHSAA.  I usually take the very first week of June off to just decompress and relax a bit, then it's right into Drum Line summer rehearsals.  Usually 3 days a week (might be 4 this year), for 3-4 hours at a time.  Once the end of July hits I'm essentially back to school because Band Camp *#ThisOneTime,AtBandCamp* starts up, then teacher meetings swing into high gear, and before I know it it's convocation day and the students are arriving.  Regarding our other time off,  Snow Days are great if we have one or two, anymore than that and our lives become even *more* complicated!  #MAP, #EOC, #SRI,anyone?  #TeachingToTheTest.  #GottaCatchUP...  Winter break is the only one I hold sacred "Love you all but I don't want to see you or hear from you unless it's a dire emergency over break" *laugh* All of the other breaks we have I have rehearsal more times than not.
Summer Rehearsal

District Competition Fun, 2011
So I guess what I'm getting at is that you all out there in internet land/the world, need to realize that we are incredibly overworked AND underpaid (I held a second job bartending on the weekends before I got cancer and had to quit), yet we go above and beyond trying to make the best out of a bad situation that the government makes worse with each passing year.  So please get on the side of your teachers because if we're not going to educate your children, who will, and if we're not given some semblance of respect for the hard work we do, schools are gonna lose a lot more than just government funding.  

So thank your teachers, help your teachers, #RESPECT your teachers.  Give *us* that kind word occasionally to let us know that we are truly appreciated for all the hard work we do and valuable time we donate to the success of YOUR children.   
Praying to the "Drum Gods" for a good performance


Wednesday, March 23, 2011

A short update from *this* Shop-a-holic

I only spent $3.28 today and that was in some spare cash I had in my purse.  I got some fries and an iced tea after PD, on my way to solo rehearsal.  I did make my Monday stop at the 7-11 for some Arizona green tea and Cheezits #WouldLoveALifetimeSupplyofBoth and although these are not clothing purchases, it is an area I can and should cut back in.  

This past weekend was the large shopping trip round.  I don't know how yours plays out but it's about every 3rd shopping trip that the personal items, or "toiletries" need to be replenished and the dog food to be bought.  #WatchOut! That means a trip to Target!!  I wouldn't be surprised if you heard a shriek of pain from our checking account as we stocked up on the necessities.  *laugh* Yet it's a good thing because that has left precious little to which gas must be bought #ThanksGovernment so no shopping for me.

On to the next day...

Friday, March 18, 2011

Competition pieces for Districts...enjoy!

Just a taste of what we've been working extremely hard on for the past however many months.  Competition is next Saturday where hopefully we will get "I" ratings so we can continue on to State at the end of April!

Centrifugal by Chris Crockarell; 8 member ensemble.

Synergy by Chris Crockarell; 4 member ensemble

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Thank you Butch @ Purgatory 2 Tattoo in Blue Springs, MO!

Thank you to Butch and Purgatory 2 Tattoo for the fabulous artwork!  You are an incredible artist with a wonderful talent, and a fabulous shop.  Thanks for taking away my "tramp stamp" and giving me something more meaningful to my soul.

The old "tramp stamp"
My lotus flower and "Om" symbol

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Confessions of *this* Shop-a-holic

Well, not even a few days in and I've already tripped up (refusing to use the word fail).  This is such a non-thinking behavior for me that I think I need to come up with a mantra to repeat over and over (should watch "Confessions of a Shop-a-holic" for theirs) as I walk through stores on regular shopping trips.  

So here's what happened.  Two days ago I went to Target and the grocery store for our normal shopping trip.  Everything went fine at the grocery store, stuck to my list and made it in and out lickity split (went to Wal-Mart and I try never to stay longer there than absolutely necessary).  Anyways, after Wal-Mart was the zip over to Target to get dog food and some other necessaries that I can only find at Target.  Without even thinking I moseyed into the clothing section and came face to face with the swim suits.  

 "OOooooooooo!!!!!  Look at that one!  The pink with the flowers, the yellow with the swirls...Eek!  There's a white one with polka dots and a purple ruffle one.  Oh I gotta have it!"

So I ripped the two I was salivating over off the rack, checked the sizes and threw them in the cart without a second thought.  Not even *once* did the thought "I gave this up for Lent!" shoot through my brain.  I was on the shopping high, the thrill of the bargain, the happy thought of having new bikini's for my new girls, and the giddiness of getting the last pink one!

I got home and immediately took my treasures up to my room to try on.  As I was taking the tags off the pink one and ripping the "sanitary liner" out of the bottoms I was suddenly hit with the realization that I had just had an #EPICFAIL in keeping with my decision for Lent.


Unfortunately I now have to keep the pink one because I had already taken the tags off and tried it on...yeah...but in light of picking myself up and dusting myself off and finding the path again I returned the purple one.  Don't believe me?  Here's the proof...

I returned it this morning and when the gal asked "Is there anything wrong with it?" my reply was "No, it's me.  I have a shopping problem and I didn't need to buy this and I must return it.  Thanks"  Her reply? "Oh I totally understand, I have a shopping problem as well!"

At least I know I'm not alone.

So folks, I already screwed up but am not going to let it get me down.  I can and WILL succeed at this, so I'm gonna hitch myself up by my britches and keep on keepin' on.

"I Do Not Need To Shop!"  "I Do Not Need To Shop!"  "I Do Not Need To Shop!"  "I Do Not Need To Shop!"  "I Do Not Need To Shop!"  "I Do Not Need To Shop!"  "I Do Not Need To Shop!"  "I Do Not Need To Shop!"  "I Do Not Need To Shop!"  "I Do Not Need To Shop!"  "I Do Not Need To Shop!"  "I Do Not Need To Shop!"  "I Do Not Need To Shop!"  "I Do Not Need To Shop!"  "I Do Not Need To Shop!"  "I Do Not Need To Shop!"  "I Do Not Need To Shop!"  "I Do Not Need To Shop!"

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Mayan Prophecies & 2012; Join me in making a change in the world however small.


I'm really not kidding when I talk about the winter solstice of 2012.  I'm getting my hands on everything I can read about it and here's what I've basically deduced is going on.  The Mayan's were right, this 5th Sun period we're living in is the most dangerous to be alive. I mean come on, all you have to do is turn on the news each morning to find out that it's true.  Earthquake in Japan anyone?  Tsunmai's?  Heavy flooding? Economic disaster?  Mother nature is thinning the herd peeps, plain and simple, and my belief is that if you want to be around to witness whatever spectacular change is going to take place within us and within the planet, then you better get straight with mother nature and all the divine spirits that reside above. 

That's what I'm doing.

The book that I will be referencing from throughout this blog is one of my favorites when it comes to the Mayan civilization, their prophecies, and what we might be able to expect as this period draws to a close, and a new sun dawns.  The book is titled "The Maya 2012 The end of the world or the dawn of enlightenment? by Gerald Benedict.  Now, as my sister can attest, I can tend to latch onto the bad (remember the killer bees coming up from Mexico back in the 80's?  Oh yeah, she teased me relentlessly over that one), and some of the previous books I read about Dec. 21st, 2012 had me spinning off into the deep end of the cosmos imagining nothing but a terrifyingly painful death that makes all of what we are doing now so incredibly trivial. 

That was until I found the book I mentioned above and a couple others that I am in the process of reading.  For those of you who are sitting there reading this thinking "The Mayan are a long-dead civilization, I don't know what she's talking about, how could an ancient civilization impact our current reality?" let me share a few things with you that are undeniable in their testament.

1) "The Maya are attracting a great deal of attention  There are three principal reasons for this, the first being the approach of the end date of their Long Count calendar, 21 December 2012; the second, that at sunrise on that date, with the cycle of precession completed, there will be an alignment of the planets, the Earth, Sun and Milky Way, which only happens every 26,000 years (I heard the last time this happened was when the Dinosaurs roamed the earth), and thirdly, that the message of the Mayan prophecies is intended for those of us who are living during the years leading to and beyond 2012." (pg. xi)

Did you read that/hear that correctly?  LEADING TO AND BEYOND 2012. 

We're not going to die on Dec. 21st, 2012 folks.  Life for us is not going to stop.  What *is* going to happen is that life #AsWeKnowIt and our #PerceptionOfLife is going to change.  Follow my logic here for a second.  First; you can't argue with the cycle of precession.  This is something the earth was built to do...she is constantly shifting on her axis, and the idea is that when Dec. 21st, 2012 comes about, ol' mother earth has gone as far as she can go in the direction she is turning/shifting, and *has* to go back the other direction.  

Why could this be a problem?  As it stands now our lives are inherently wrapped up in how she rotates on her axis right now and therefore how the energy runs through the poles of the earth.  When she begins to turn back the other way (which will take another 26,000 years to get to the other side) the energy running North-South through the poles will reverse and our technology will crap out.  So therefore our technological life as we know it will cease to exist until the powers that be bring out the newest and best with technology to run off of the pole reversal.  Granted I believe there are probably people in the deepest levels of the government that are already working on this and probably have been for years but we won't find out until it's a freaking crisis because as we *all* know those in the deepest levels of secrecy within the government are *MEN* and men never do anything of importance until it's a freaking crisis; *Man Cold* anyone?  but I digress....

This could also turn out to be a blessing in disguise.  How many hours a day do we spend "hooked into" our technology?  I'll be the first to admit that I'm just as addicted to my phone, computer, facebook, blogging, email, twitter, and my fashion site as the next person.  I'm the one walking down the halls/street texting on her phone or checking facebook because "God forbid" I miss out on someone's status update or tweet.  So within that vein, I'd be okay if all our technology crapped out and we were forced to make face to face connections again; memorize phone numbers, what no speed dial?!,  again to dial using a *gasp* land line on a corded phone! or, have to #WALK over to my friend's house because my car won't start because the computer chip inside has burned out.  

This could be good for all of us.

Secondly; *all* of the civilizations that are wrapped up in the prediction of the winter solstice of 2012 may not exist anymore as we may think about it but the truth is THEY DO.  Think about it for a second.  There are still Mayan descendants living in this world.  Ancient Egyptians?  Yup.  Ancient Chinese?  Oh yeah.  What about the dinosaurs who were "extinguished" so many years ago?  All you have to do is go to Louisiana or your local zoo to see their descendants; #Alligator'sAnyone?  They didn't all die off, that's just Mother Nature thinning the herd, but their way of life definitely changed; and they adapted and changed with it.

Moving on...

2) "The Maya, uniquely, held to a holistic cosmology that inextricably linked religion, astronomy, mathematics and spirituality.  The prophecies perfectly express the combined force of these components and are themselves tied into the calendars and confirmed by the Mayan concept of cyclic time...The Mayans dealt in huge periods of time - which, like the planets themselves, cycled relentlessly only to return to an original 'fixed point' every 26,000 years.  The five different periods, or Suns, into which the 26,000 years was divided, all ended with some kind of catastrophe.  Each separate period...has its own character, or personality, formed by the events that took place during its cycle.  As the periods recur so will the events that characterize them.  It therefore follows that if time cycles, so does history." (pg. xv)

I've really begun to see how time is cyclic and not linear, especially being a teacher it's one constant cycle that repeats itself.  Schools are constantly caught in the cyclic mode of time; follow me for a second here.  Those of us in the education profession are constantly surrounded by the same age groups.  Yes, of course they grow up and move on, but we are stuck in that vortex of time that surrounds a high school, junior high, or elementary.  Kindergartners are *always* going to have that rough transition from home life to school life.  5th graders are *always* going to be scared of the transition from elementary school to junior high school (or middle school depending upon where you teach).  8th graders are going to think they know it all and then their brain is going to turn into mush once those hormones start raging and all they can think about is the opposite sex.  9th graders are going to be the "Big fish in a small pond" and get too big for their britches.  High Schoolers are *always* going to be in that cycle of finding who they really are, exploring relationships whether it be in the friend or romantic category, and Seniors are *ALWAYS* going to get "Senior-itis" in October.  The dress code will change over time but *that* is also cyclic in nature.  Stirrup pants anyone?  Booties?  Plaid flannel?  Grungey attire?  Raise your hand if you're my age and went though those fads once already and are now seeing them come back again.....


Mmmm-hmmmm that's what I thought.  See my point?

Here's another example, and this is directed towards my fellow women.  Look at our "monthly cycle".  The actual *event* of Aunt Flow should run like clockwork in most of us.  The same time every month an egg is released from our ovaries and if we're not in a place in our lives to use that egg in the way in which it is intended, good ol' "Aunt Flow" comes a knockin' and takes care of it for us.  Also think about the time surrounding the event.  I can tell you exactly which couple of weeks out of the month I'm going to feel bloated, tired, crabby, and generally skeeved off, and which couple of weeks I'm going to feel super thin fit and fabulous.  Instead of lamenting my bloated and "fat" weeks and beating myself up for not being my fit and fabulous self, I instead say "Oh.  We're at that point this month.  Cool, it'll cycle out and I'll be back to feeling "normal" next week", and I move on with my life until the next month when it cycles all back around.

Can you now see your life as cyclic instead of linear?  I sure can and I think that's unlocked a couple of secrets buried deep within the recess of my primordial brain but I'm still exploring those and not ready to share just yet.

3) "What will the future bring?  It will not bring the destruction of the world, but it may bring the return, in some form, of a supreme being.  Certainly we will face challenging threats and great risks, some beyond our control (earthquakes and tsunamis anyone?), others within the range of our collective responsibility (reduce, reuse, recycle!)." (pg. xi-xvii)

What supreme being?  Some say Christ and him taking all his followers in the blink of the eye while leaving the remaining non-believers a chance to "get right with God" so they can spend eternity living with him in peace and harmony.  Some others say it's a collective holding of all the divine spirits that reside above that will come put the smack down on us lowly humans and make us change for the better.  Or, maybe good ol' Mother Nature is the only supreme being we really need to worry about because SHE is the one who truly gives us life, cradles us within her crust, allows us the air with which we breathe, the water that we drink, and the soil in which to grow food.

One passage I latch onto from the introduction of this book is this..."The combined message of the various prophecies is positive.  If we can overcome that sense of lack and recover the wisdom we have lost, we will survive by the natural process of evolution, honing those functions and faculties that will best ensure the continuation of the human race and the planet.  Such survival will require the evolution of our minds, and our consciousness, and or spirituality."  

So we must all transition.  We must all begin to understand that we are NOT all that and a bag of chips.  The human race is inherently flawed, and hugely responsible for the mess we find ourselves in, but there IS a way out.  It's all cyclic people, remember that.  This happened once, it's happening again, and it will happen yet again when it comes back around. "The period of transition through which we are now passing, leading to galactic synchronization, will move us from an age of belief to an age of knowledge.  Belief is a matter of faith, of accepting for whatever reason that something is true or reliable...Belief is founded on trust which may, or may not, be based in experience.  On the other hand, we know the Sun will rise tomorrow...The prophecy of a new enlightenment is of our transition to this kind of certainty.  The Chilam Balam of Tizimin assures us that we 'will begin to esteem our learning and our knowledge of the unrolling of the face of the universe'." (pg 133)

Don't believe me that the Mayan's are and have been correct?  Here is an overview of their prophecies that have come true.  Keep in mind they made these prophecies thousands of years ago for time periods that had not happened yet, and they made these prophecies with the help of the sun, moon, and stars. (Page 15-41)  There are 21 of them, and that's a lot so skim if you will.  The BLUE lettering is in Mr. Benedict's words, the rest is my interpretation/spin.

1) Prophecies of the Coming of Foreigners and a New Religion
In summary the Maya fortold the total decline of their classical civilization.  It talks about the violent seizure of their land and life by the insurgence of Christianity and the Spanish.  This prophecy was to give "...early indication of sudden radical and challenging change, and a warning to prepare for it. Radical change is a theme that runs through all the prophecies that point us to December 2012.  This theme, and many others, is carried by the Maya's concept of cyclic time, especially specific periods of time, such as the 20-year katuns.  These have particular characteristics that determinded the nature of the events that would recur."

2) The Prophecy of the Emergence of Contemporary Mayan Masters and Teachers
The basic idea of this prophecy is to tell us that there will be people who will return to the sacred Mayan sites as "initiates of the future"  They are to enable *us* to have " insight and understanding, and to acquire 'cosmic wisdom'".  These initiates will not be exclusively Maya.  They will represent all cultures, religions, age, sexual orientation, races, and socio-economic class.  "Their main concerns will be the problems that have been caused by a materialistic education, the negative influences of a technocratic culture, and our almost total separation from nature.  The prophecy speaks of our urgent need of these teachers who, by sharing the recovered wisdom, will lead us back to the basic but ominously neglected sources of spiritual ful(l)filment, and of life itself."

I'll take a guru.  #Sign.Me.Up 

3) The Prophecy of the Return to Mayan Ceremonial Sites
The last sentence summarizes it best; "Wherever we live, and whatever path we follow, the prophecy calls us to recover our sensitiity to places charged with spiritual energy and knowledge."  Go outside and pray to Mother Nature, Mother Earth, because the most sacred site we all share is the earth on which we live.  We *must* take better care of her or she's going to "kick us off the island" as it were.  I prayed to her as we were traipsing around in the woods yesterday.  I remember staring down at a decomposing tree and marveling at the geometric-ness to which it was coming apart.  This tree was breaking down into small squares and rectangles and it was fascinating to me.  I tapped the tree with my foot and some of the squares and rectangles moved apart from one another, then without thinking I stepped on this log and destroyed it.  Not a big deal right?  WRONG-O.  MAJOR WRONG-O.  I destroyed the habitat of numerous bugs who had made that decomposing log their home.  I felt horrified.  I placed the section of log that broke off back on top as gently as I could as said a prayer which was basically this "OH Mother Nature I'm so sorry I am an unthinking human being apparently bent on destruction.  That was a shameful example of my disregard for nature.  For that I am humbled and sorry."  I took care of where I was stepping from that point on.

4) The Prophecy of the Return of a Supreme Being 
"...Rather than predicting the physical return of the ancient god, the prophecy tells us that with the
 ... initiation of cosmic wisdom people can attain the same, high spiritual state, so as to 'become' Kukulcan...From this moment on, I would like you to realize that we are all Quetzalcoatl or Kukulcan  We need only to develop our faculties of consciousness to fully realize that status."  

I think this falls in line with the fact that we, humans, use an incredibly small percentage of our brain power.  I believe that there is untold wisdom, power, and grace locked away in the deep recesses of our mind that we *must* access in order to survive the change that is coming.  I'm working on unlocking mine...are you?

5) The Prophecies of Pacal Votan
I highly recommend that you research these as I cannot give an accurate summary that will make sense.  These basically have to do with the Mayan beliefs within burying their king and making a "psychoduct" (pg 19) which helps the dead and undead communicate with one another, and the prophecy "...calls us to use personal, collective and cosmic energy to transcend the materialism and tecno-dominance of our age, so as to prepare for the problematic transition into the next World Age.  In this process, humanity will experience an evolutionary development of new creative and communicative faculties".  Like I said, research it if you want to understand more.

6) The Prophecy of Galactic Snchronization
This prophecy talks about energies and "influences" that will be released as a result of this conjunction.  Keep in mind it only takes place once every 26,000 years so regardless of what happens we're living in an exciting time because *we* will be around to see it!  The fact that on Dec. 21st, 2012 the sun is going to rise in conjunction with the 'Dark Rift' of the Milky Way is stellar enough, knowing that people living thousands upon thousands of years ago predicted this was going to happen is unreal.  

7) Prophecy Related to the Milky Way
Galactic Synchronization and the Milky Way go hand in hand because the 'Dark Rift' of the Milky Way is where this GS is centered, born from, what it concerns.  The Mayan mythology classifies the Milky Way as "The Tree of Life".  "The prophecy of the Milky Way forming the symbolic tree-image speaks of the continued evolution of the entire planet and of everything that is dependent on it for its life, both physically and spiritually...the prophecy anticipates a major point of transition in the history of planet Earth, the start of a new World Age, and an unprecedented creative shift in human consciousness and civilization".  

I think an unprecedented shift in our consciousness and civilization is just what we need.  I'm all for it, are you?!

8) Prophecy Related to the Moon
Now this one is kind of scary to me because I never realized that the Moon was actually characterized with deceitfulness, promiscuity, and unpredictability.  Do we really know all the ways the Moon influences our planet?  How it influences us?  Apparently these characteristics suggest events that will surprise and challenge us...wonder what those will be?  "The Moon's association with water implies periods of disastrously destructive flooding"  Uh-oh...aren't we already seeing this, and aren't we anticipating a heavy Spring flooding this year in the Midwest due to all the freaking snow?  The Maya also used the phrase "Rabbit in the Moon" versus "Man in the Moon"; the rabbit idea carries a link with "drunkenness, and thus of a humanity intoxicated with pleasure and materialism", just take a look at what the state of our television, & magazines cater too (reality TV), and all you have to do is observe those around you to know we're all stuck on having "The Next Best Thing".  On the flip-side, any woman can tell you that the Moon is also associated with "womanly ways", as in childbirth, and childbirth as we all know is the *ultimate* sign of renewal, rebirth, the chance to start over, and hopefully this time we'll be "...more cosmically conscious (as a) humanity".  

9) The Prophecy Related to Venus 
This prophecy speaks to Venus specifically as it transits (crosses) the Sun, and "...speaks of a criticcal period of transition both for our planet and humanity".  Because the Maya view/viewed time as cyclic, they prophesied that there would be some form of a major catastrophe (earthquake maybe?) that since it happened once when Venus was rising/declining/or transiting the Sun, that it made sense that it would happen again.  Anybody out there watchin' Venus?  What's she doing?  Is the earthquake in Japan the prophesied one, or one of the earthquakes prior, or one yet to come?  According to this book, Venus is set to transit the Sun on June 6th, 2012 and according to Mayan elders, not only is this transit to be understood as a "...visible appearance of the Feathered Serpent which..points to 'Cosmic Initiation'", this is also "...the time when the solar sunspot activity will be at its maximum, generating other forms of energy on Earth."  


10) The Prophecy of Transition to a New Age
The Fifth Sun is drawing to a close.  From the books that I have read, this is the most dangerous time to be alive.  Is it really any wonder?  I mean, like I said earlier all you have to do is watch the new each morning or night to see that we're surrounded by natural disasters that seem to never end, they just keep piling one on top of the other on top of the other.  The Sixth Sun is predicted to begin in 2012.  When this happens, the cycle is going to be reset.  The Earth is going to have to start back in the opposite direction working towards the next 26,000 year Galactic Synchronization.  I find it interesting that the Maya called this "..time between ages...'Apocalypse'."  What a scary word isn't it?  Apocalypse means "...a time of revelation or disclosure", when you put it that way it's not that scary.  "Our transition towards a New Age offers us the chance to improve and stabilize our relationships, and to accept our responsibility for the Earth" 

Did you read that?!  OUR RESPONSIBILITY FOR THE EARTH.  Sure, maybe a lot of the things that are happening are just *what happens* during this time/age, but it can't be ignored that we have helped spin the world off into the deep end, and we must work at getting it back.  I'm comforted by the notion that in Mayan culture, this New Age is the sign of the creation of a new world and hopefully the regeneration of our humanity and planet's sustainability.

11) The Prophecy of the Unity of Mankind
Isn't this what we all want? Peace and unity for all of us?  Within all of us?  This prophecy speaks to the NECESSITY of us all banding together, forgetting our differences and realizing that we are ALL fundamentally the same and must ALL work together if we are going to succeed and survive. 

12) The Prophecy of a New 'Enlightenment'
I love this prophecy because it talks about how we all need to make a radical shift in our perceptions (Quantum Physics anyone?) and really look again at our relationship with nature and to really understand how we fit into the universe.  In the words from the movie Contact, "If we're the only things out there, isn't that an incredible waste of space?" Reading through this prophecy it becomes known that some of us will experience this shift immediately following Dec. 21st, 2012, and for the rest of us it will be a gradual change but nonetheless a remarkable one.

My idea of Cosmic Consciousness
13) The Prophecy of Cosmic Consciousness
"The Maya understood that everything that exists is energy, and that consciousness is a property of matter.  Thus, what appears to be a prophecy rooted in an abstract, metaphysical process is in reality, far more concrete."  I understand this to relate to the idea of Quantum Physics and that there are multiple realities surrounding us at all times and the choices that we make steer us down the particular realities those choices are attached too.  This is such a large and vast concept that I can't comprehend it right now.  I'm working on it though because I believe this is the key to our perceptions and the key to living the life we *really* want to live.  "The prophecy speaks of the power of sharply focused collective thought which may, potentially, be the most powerful energy humankind has ever realized".     

If you've made it this far, bravo.  I know this stuff is hard to understand and at times scary but I would rather do as much research as I can and learn as much as I can about this topic, and then to be called a *weirdo* then to have something happen that I am totally unprepared for and quite possibly die because of it.  *Shrug* To each their own.

14) The Prophecy of Recovered Memory
This prophecy is both sad and uplifting.  It's sad because it's based off of the idea that we have forgotten all that our ancestors knew about being one with the Earth, one with nature.  This has lead to us destroying the only home that we have, and that is such a pity.  Are there other planets out there that could be our new habitat?  #Sure.  Is that going to happen within the next year? #ProbablyNot.  The "Recovered Memory" is just that.  The wisdom, or cosmic consciousness that we all have stored in our primordial brain, will be recovered and we will become one with nature again.  "The prophecy speaks of a memory revolution.  This recovery of knowledge 'will enable people to echo the memory of the universe.  And the new humankind will possess special capabilities, rationality and emotion".  

That's pretty damn cool if you ask me.  I wonder what types of abilities our future child(ren) will have.  It's quite a thought.

Why do we want to destroy this?
15) The Prophecy of the Destruction of the Earth
Doesn't that just warm you heart and make you feel all fuzzy inside.  It's actually not as bad as it sounds, "What the prophecy speaks of clearly is that while a sudden, terminal end of the Earth is unlikely (that's good to know), we will have to work through the consequences of our spoilation of the planet, and our exploitation of its natural resources."  Of course we do, we've the mess and we have to deal with it.  I cringe anytime I remember the Oprah show I watched that showed a garbage swirl as big as the state of TEXAS, yes you read that correctly, a *gargabe swirl* the size of TEXAS out in one of our oceans.  Are you kidding me people?!  In the OCEAN!?!  Wtf do you think is going to happen to all of the life that depends on that water for their survival.  Is it not enough that we have to crap up our neighborhoods and streets because we're too damn lazy to throw our trash in a TRASH CAN or, here's a novel concept, a RECYCLING BIN, that we let it get washed out to sea and expand into something the size of TEXAS?  This just makes me sick to my stomach.  Sometimes on the highway I want to ram the person in front of me when they flick their cigarette butt out the window.  You're going to hell for that.  Trust me on that one.  

*Deep Breath*  Sorry I got side tracked there for a second...In relation to this prophecy it is comforting to know that each age, or Sun, is marked by some extreme natural catastrophe, hence why I'm not panicked like I was originally when I first started looking into this topic.  If every Sun ended in catastrophe yet there were still people to continue living on, I'm okay with that.  This is the cyclic nature of time.  Maybe if we really understand this, then as we mosey through the Sixth Sun we can put to right what we screwed up and make the Earth an even better place to be.

16) Prophecy of Earth Changes, Ecology and Climate
This prophecy states "...the surface of the Earth will be moved..."  How many earthquakes all of the world have there been this year?  Don't think the surface of the Earth has shifted with all of those?  Of course it has.  This prophecy is about "...our pollution of the biosphere in the decades leading to 2012, which has set us in conflict rather than in harmony with nature...all those elements of the Earth that support life, are at risk".  There is debate about which has contributed more to global warming and climate change; advances in science and technologies or those industries that support them.  There is also debate over whether the climate changes we are experiencing and have experienced are due to *us* or whether it's more of a natural cycle that the Earth follows as it marches along it's cycle of precession.  It would stand to reason that if time is cyclic, then this *is* what is supposed to be happening at this moment in time in terms of climate changes, but we still need to pull our heads out of our rear's and reconnect with nature.  "The disturbances of our land shall eventually turn back", gives a positive light and suggests we will remember what it means to take care of the planet...our home. One can hope.

17) The Prophecy of Changes to the Earth' s Magnetic Field
This prophecy speaks to excessive sunspot activity (No CBS, you may not blame anything on sunspots), and changes in the Earth's magnetic center, as well as the Sun's.  Apparently NASA has corroborated this, and some sort of disaster seems likely. We've already seen reports of increased sunspot activity on the this another prophecy coming true?

18) Prophecies of Evolution and Genetics
This is a cool prophecy.  Pretty much we're going to evolve into more mature spiritual beings with a higher level of human consciousness, complete with abilities, skills, and creativity that are unimaginable at this point in time.  I think that's wicked cool to know that we either will evolve into more creative beings, or we will evolve so that we are able to tap into the creativity that is already inherent within each one of us.  This prophecy relates to Kundalini Yoga.  Research it if you like, it's an interesting concept and I believe that a couple of years ago I witnessed my first surge of Kundalini power up my spine, but with no teacher to guide me it cannot and should not be unleashed.   

19) The Prophecy of Transcending Technology
"The prophecy calls us back to the running theme of our need to recover our natural integration with nature, and speaks of our urgent need to transcend a technology that is rapidly approaching the time when technology will transcend us".  We're so plugged in all the time that we're missing the world around us.  Go ahead, take those ear buds out and power down your phone for 30minutes.  Take a book, sit outside, feel the sun or wind upon your face and just be.  Go ahead, I won't tell...

20) The Prophecy of Time
I enjoy this prophecy because it tells us that the end of time won't be what 2012 is all about.  It's not going to be the end of the world, it's going to be "the end of the conventional way we understand and experience time".  I find this last sentence intriguing, "Our awareness...will gather considerable momentum towards 2012, but to change our concept of time will require a radical alteration of our perception".  Is an hour going to hold the same definition anymore?  A second?  A minute?  A day?  Only way to find out...

21) The Prophecy that We Are the Prophecy
Of course we are.  We're the people who are living prior to this moment in history and we are the ones who will live during it and after it.  Most importantly the prophecy points to us as the ones who are necessary for this radical shift, we can't pass this off to a different generation.  We have to do it.  We have to make the change.  I'm getting ready, are you?


So this is what I have been discovering and reading about for some quite time now.  Call me weird, that's okay because #1 I am so it's no big surprise, and #2 I'd rather be called "weird" if nothing happens on Dec. 21st, 2012, than to be wholly unprepared for what is going to happen.  Know what I mean?
Read the book ("The Maya 2012: The end of the world, or the dawn of enlightenment?" by Gerald Benedict) for yourself, find other books to read, articles on-line, what-have-you.  This is my 3rd book on this subject that I have read, I've watched a documentary, read some articles, and discussed with others. We're in a historic period and have great opportunities to change not only the world but how we perceive it and each other.  

I'm ready to hop off the hand-basket the government has us in that's headed towards Hell, and jump onto the collective consciousness of the universe and immerse myself in it's cosmic wonder.  I hope you'll take the plunge with me, but it's okay if you start with just your toes.


Saturday, March 12, 2011

I've made a decision, RE: Lent

Whatever your religious affiliation/belief(s) may be, there's one thing to be said for believing in something greater than you, for believing that there might just be someone or something out there that can give you some peace, guidance, help, whatever.  I like to believe that there are numerous, wonderful divine spirits that reside above and watch over us, guide us, help us make the right choices in our lives.


 That's why I'm going to observe Lent this year.  Jesus  
(and all his variations) is one of the divine spirits I believe in, and the purpose of Lent revolves around the sacrifice he made for us all.  I figure if he sacrificed his *life* I can sacrifice something of great importance too me.  Something that some would say I am addicted too (probably rightly so), something that gives me true pleasure and contentment,


If you know me, you know I love, love, *LOVE* to shop.  Hell, my dad dubbed me "Imelda Marcos" years ago because my shoe and purse collection kept building up "NO dad, these black shoes are, like, *so* different from the other 5 pairs in my closet" *laugh*. I dig getting a good bargain, true, but I just love shopping plain and simple; Target, Charlotte Russe, Forever21, eBay.  The rush of buying that super cute top, those to die for shoes...priceless.  The smell of COACH leather, there's not another thing like it in this world.  
Back in college I gave my soul to the credit card devil for those new shoes, super cute top, and 50th pair of jeans, and I'm still paying my way out.  *sigh*  While I don't use plastic as liberally as I did in the past, I still have an addiction too it.  That's why I closed down as many accounts as I could (I had a successful run at paying some off near my alter years of college) a couple of years ago and; I just took my last credit card *out* of my wallet because in truth the only way I won't use it is if I don't have access to it (kind of like the reason I don't like keeping sweets in the house).  Even with the credit card devil out of my reach, there's still the problem of my check card and the fact that I am the main "shopper" for the family so therefore make frequent trips to the grocery store and Target (dog food) where the impulse can take over.  

I'd say that on average I overspend by about $30-$50 per trip to either place.  I go to the grocery store about twice a month for the main grocery loads and probably about two more times to replenish the necessary items like milk, creamer, almond milk, and bread.  Twice a month, along with the main grocery trip, is the trip to Target for dog food.  For whatever reason, Target's the only place that carries the type of food our dogs eat, and the temptation to walk through the clothing section and pick something out because "Hell, it's *only* $30" is almost to much too bear sometimes.  So let's say $50 bucks twice a month with the main shopping trips, then $30 a pop on the side trips and that's $160 a month.  Then the awful truth is that I probably spend another $100 just straight up on clothes in a month.  Then tack on an extra $40 a month in Walgreens stops during the school week, and I average $300 a month I'm just p!ssing away.  That's horrid when I see that in print, but that's what I need to see.  I need to see the awful truth of it and put it out there for everyone to know because then and only then will I begin to change.  That money could be put to better use in our lives and that's what I intend to do.

So there it is folks, there's my dirty little secret.  I'm a shop-a-holic, I *love* shopping, and I intend to give it up for Lent.  So here's the plan.  Anytime I feel the need to shop, I will take the money that I most likely would have spent and either give it away to charity or put it in savings.  Here's my first savings drop.  Below are two items that I want really really bad.  They would freshen up my wardrobe with a light spring "kick" and would bring me on trend with what's new this season.  Now, do I really need either of these?  NO.  Would I like to have them?  Oh yeah.  I've already got items to pair them with, and places to wear them.  I've already imagined them in my closet, but I'm  Here they are...both are from Body Central 

1) Printed One Shoulder Top, $22.80 
2) Fleur-de-Lies Print Belted Tube Dress, $24.80 (purple is the one I want)
3) Horseshoe Thong Sandal, $14.50 (silver)

Adding that all up; $22.80 + $24.80 + $14.50 = $62.10, then tack on some shipping and handling and we're looking at $70 give or take.  *wow* So, I am now going to mosey on over to my banking website and transfer that amount from our checking account into our savings account, or rather maybe I should transfer it onto the credit card to pay it down some more...hmmmm...thoughts?  The way I see it is that if I were going to spend that money anyways I should rather "pay myself" than the big corporate mongers to add more clothing to a closet that is already jam packed full of beautiful things.


So that's my plan.  That's my thank you to the big man in the sky for the sacrifice he made, it's time for me to make my own.  I will chronicle as I go along this new journey because I know it's going to be one tough thing for me to do.  So give me your support however you like, even if it's just some positive thoughts into the greater beyond, or dedicating a yoga practice to me and my quest to give up shopping for at least 40 days.

It shall be interesting.