|afternoon snuggle nap|
I know he'll be taken care of very well, but how can you, as a mother, be okay with basically saying to someone else, "Here. I want you to snuggle my little baby all day, feed him, change him, and watch him grow"...you can't really...but you have to be. Logically I know he'll be fine. I know he'll miss me, and I'll miss him, but I also know that he'll be happy to be back in my arms at the end of the day and I'm sure once we get into the day in/day out routine of it all I'll be glad to be back at work and be thankful for all of the love, attention, and growth he is going to get from Lauren and her family.
*sigh* It just makes me sad.
I could play the game of "Had I never" all I like going as far back as college to change my situation. Had I never racked up all that college credit card debt, had I never added too it when I got my first job, I'd be able to stay home longer on unpaid leave because I wouldn't be paying off debt.
Then there's the doozie..."Had I never gotten breast cancer, I would have had enough sick days to stay home till January"...but you can't play this game with that one now can you. That's not fair.
|morning snuggle nest|
I'll just have to get them back in the afternoon when I race out of school to go pick him up and scoop him up in my arms. I only hope he smiles and coos at me when I see him for that first time. I hope...