Well I made it through my first weekend of Chemo. All in all it was not near as traumatic as I thought it was going to be, no reactions to the chemo meds, and I really hope it stays that way. If all I have to deal with is some slight nausea, some fatigue and one day of body aches from the Neulasta shot, I'm okay with that. What I'm not okay with is this "Half a bubble off" feeling that I've had all day. Like I'm moving through water. Hard to concentrate, hard to discern what the matter is...hard to tell if it's an after effect of chemo/Neulasta OR just the regular summer time bio-rhythm schedule adjustment period. Whatever it is I don't care for it.
I woke up this morning feeling pretty good, went for my walk/jog (no dogs this time...couldn't handle an all out sprint w/them hahahha!) then just moseyed around the house for a while. It was about the time I realized I needed to eat breakfast that I started feeling weird. Thinking breakfast would help things, I had my delicious protein shake (chocolate today) and took all my vitamins then decided instead of laying around the house all day (because that's what I did Fri-Sun) I'd go to Lawrence to hang out with the fam, have lunch, see Thomas...ya know, the good stuff of life.
Too bad my weirdo feeling followed me all the way to Lawrence because I really had a big hankering for some queso dip and an ice cold beer from Free State when I left our house, but by the time I got there I just wanted an ice tea and a nap. *Weird*. It was good to see everyone, Thomas is as monkey-ish as ever, and it still feels slightly like home when I walk in that building (Hi Shannon! It was great too see you :). After lunch I crashed at mom and dad's for an hour or so hoping to banish the weird feeling but no such luck. It has followed me home. Granted, it's not as bad as it was, but that half bubble just won't go away! *Grrrr*
Hopefully some relaxing at home and some yoga later will restore my equilibrium to normal...or perhaps getting back into a swing of some normalcy w/some Drum Line rehearsals this week will do the trick. Who knows. Either way I want it to go away!!!
Being "Half a Bubble" is not bad although I can understand how that can make you feel. Try to go with the flow and you'll probably come out of it soon. Remember if you need us we are there for whatever. Foot rubs, soothing tones, love pats, hugs, quietly sitting beside you and holding your hand.....etc. Whatever means a lot of anything you might need to get you through this. Sometime next week we might take Thomas to the Zoo in Topeka....interested? The Topeka Zoo is small enough to let him run crazy and in an hour we are done and ready to ride on the Carousel before heading home. Think about it as it could be a different angle to your day.
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When do you think you're going to the zoo? Next week sometime? Let me know & I'll let ya know how I'm feeling. Thanks for letting me crash after lunch, it was just what I needed. :)
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